A letter to my dead classmate



A letter to my dead classmate...the very reason why I created this blog and my fb page asksonia9081. 
I lost my classmate to depression few years ago. We stayed in the same hostel on the same floor. We belonged to the same city and  shared same first name too. She had also given me a special name ....sizzling sonia while hosting a freshers party. She was chirpy, well mannered and came from a good family. Her parents were doctors. What I repent most today is why i didn't notice her depression.  Why didn't I try to speak to her. Why we were just classmates and nothing beyond that. With this letter, I pay my deepest tribute to her...May she rest in peace!


Dear Sonia, 
I hope you are doing good in the other world! I pray to God to keep you close and strengthen your soul. 

After your death, things didn't change much. We all finished our exams and degree however with little low grades as some of us were devastated by your death. 

I have no news about your parents though I tried to visit them but could not gather the courage to face them. Your room was kept locked for a few years due to ghostly stories in the hostel. Nobody dared to take that room. 

That morning, looking at your vacant seat, we kept wondering why you haven't made it to the examination hall. We all finished writing our exam with different thoughts running through our head....no one would have ever thought in their wildest dreams that you would take such a big step.

Next day, it was all over the newspapers and my parents started receiving calls from my relatives and friends thinking I'm dead. Everyone was in a panic....most of us... left confused with so many whys.

Why did you do that to yourself darling? I wish you had asked for help. Spoke to me at least once about your problem. If not me, with your best friend or parents or teachers....so many were around you....ready to help you. 

How can you give up on life so easily? I am sure you would have thought a hundred times before taking your own life....did you think of fighting for it. When one door closes, another door opens....why didn't you knock on another door? 

I was just a classmate to you...why we didn't make best friends? I would have run pillar to post to make you smile and prevent what you did to your life. How bad I wish you and I would have sat together over a cup of coffee at the same cafe and you had opened your heart to me. We would have sorted out skmething my dear.

Until this day, I live in surprise... how can someone like you give up on life so easily. I still remember your smiling face and sense of humor. How hard I try ....I just can't understand what would have caused you this trouble. 

 I know there is a after life....so I wish you a peaceful one. Rest in peace dear.

Sonia

I know I cannot turn back time but I oath to never ignore someone in future who needs to be asked 'Are you okay?' 

We all have someone around us who is struggling with depression. It just takes a moment for a depressed person to become suicidal. Please recognize them and make yourself available to them. 

I started this page in memory of my dear classmate whom I lost...may be we were too busy in our own life and education so we couldn't speculate what was she up to.

If there's anyone reading this letter who would like to talk to me, open their heart to me or seek any advice...I'm all ears. Trust me, I won't judge you or disclose your identity....please don't give up on life ever. Life has so many options....you just need someone to guide you through. 

I will feel blessed, if I could help someone and avoid their feeling of ending their life.

Much love....live life to the fullest!

#iamhereforyou
#asksoniya
#Asksonia

Reach out to me through my fb page:

https://www.facebook.com/AskSonia9081/

Comments

Post a Comment

Popular posts from this blog

7 tips to maintain digital well being

Image
If you were born in the 80s or even before, you were blessed. The technology was human's slave back then and today we have become technology's slave. Our parents never had to worry about our digital well being. In today's world digital well being is as important as physical well being. We should make sure we follow some ground rules especially with children to decrease the screen time and its effect on their behavior.  1.Control - Practice getting a control over your urge to check your phone/computer frequently.  If there is something urgent, people will call you, they will not wait after sending you a text or email. The number of likes on Facebook or Instagram won't decrease by checking them every 2 mins though it will increase and checking them again and again won't make any difference. It will only make you skip a few beats which is not good for your heart. 2.Indulge - You have tens of things around you to indulge. Just put your phone down and talk to your collea...
Read more

Your question speaks about you

 After reading this blog, you will become a little more conscious and thoughtful about the way you ask questions. Your question may unknowingly disclose your personality in front of others and make you look like a dumb or an intellect. In this article I will cover types of people based on their questions. The childish ones-  You remember when you were a kid what questions did you ask your parents. The world is naive for a kid so the questions they ask are full of curiosity.  Researchers say we should encourage our kids to ask questions and try to answer them however some kids dont have parents with enough patience hence they dont get their answers in childhood. These kids when become adults, they tend to ask the same questions but in a different context. You can recognize them by a typical modulation of voice which unintentionally shows their curiosity while asking something. It is very important to satisfy the curious cat inside them at first place otherwise they can bom...
Read more